Showing posts with label teaching. Show all posts
Showing posts with label teaching. Show all posts

Friday, February 22, 2013

The Precis

Here's a link on how to write a precis.  And here's a sample one.

This is a tool I use in my class when a good deal of new information needs to be communicated through the writings of different authors.  I want to make sure the students are 1. doing their readings, 2. comprehending the articles, 3. able to contribute well to class discussions on the material.

Students are also able to synthesize the ideas from different authors/change agents into something from their own minds.

I often ask the students to write a precis for each reading and include a short one paragraph reflection of the group of articles at the end of their submission.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

It's Already Happening

I came across Paul Hawken's synthesis in an article by David Loy on Huffington Post.  This is something I've thought about for a long time - How to define a counter-culture movement in order to inspire and educate others that change is happening, and there are so many ways to be involved. Paul seems to do that.

How will you contribute?

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Old Video Footage of Nepal

Found this website via Anil ji with clips of old video footage from as early as 1950, when Nepal was first opened up to foreign visitors. 

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Sulak Sivaraksha on 'Engaged Buddhism"

"In America and Europe, everyone is very active. But if you become too active, you lose the essence of Buddhism. You only have the Buddhist labels. One must cultivate peace to be compassionate. Without this, what you do, even as an 'engaged Buddhist' is just a lot of activity with no good purpose."

- Sulak Sivaraksa, “In Exile from Siam”

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Buddhism For Development

"Spiritual and economic development should not be separated into two separate realms. In Buddhism, one is not more important than the other. We have a saying, "Nāma-rupa" which means that mind and matter have to go together. Mind affects matter and matter affects the mind. It is the teaching of the Buddha that economic development and spiritual development need to be done alongside each other."  - Heng Monychenda, founder of Buddhism for Development (BFD)


Buddhism for Development, founded in 1990, has been working to create opportunities for monks to engage in social work activities.  Huffington Post published an article by Katherine Marshall (Georgetown) describing the motivation and impact of the organization over the past 20 years.  Here's the full article from the Berkeley Center at Georgetown. 


Thanks, CL, for sending this article!

RSA Animate - The Empathic Civilisation



Assumptions we've created based on our educational, economic, and political institutions may be wrong.  Our identities or where we feel we "belong" has shifted over the course of human civilization based on arbitrary outward situations.  i.e. the "fiction" called the nationstate, religious affiliation, blood ties.

Empathy is the opposite of utopia - there is no mortality or suffering in utopia.  Empathy is based on frailty and imperfections: the ability to show solidarity with other humans, other creatures, and our biosphere.

"Mirror Neurons" are proving empathetic capacity - humans are softwired for belonging, attachment, sociability rather than aggression and selfishness.

Is it possible to extend our empathy to the entire human race?  the other creatures we share this biosphere with?  and the biosphere itself?

To Empathize is to Civilize. 

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

RSA Animate - Drive: The surprising truth about what motivates us

Anil showed this in class the other day to highlight the concept of proper motivation in the workplace and to pose the question, "is there a proper motivation in the workplace?" The model presented here which is replicated in many places is -
1. Autonomy
2. Mastery of Skill
3. Purpose

He compared things to the Buddha's life in terms of the 8fold path.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Storytelling

Collecting definitions of words and concepts that relate to storytelling (and thus applicable to lecturing, writing about storytelling, and getting more smrt). These are words I use all the time when I am speaking with students, or scholars, usually to sound more smrt, but I think it is time to start using them properly and actually understanding their meaning.  AND reading the works that are connected with the constructs as I know them in literary theory.

Allegory 

Monomyth

Semiotics


Rhetoric

metaphor

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Top Grammar Reminders - Spring 2010

  1. Know the difference between their, they’re, and there  
  2. Eliminate your contractions (including they’re) – there are NO contractions in scholarly writing. 
  3. Check your comma usage around quotation marks.    
  4. Do not use single quotation marks as you would with your fingers in general speech.  Technically, the single quotation mark does not exist in scholarly writing.  
  5. Possessive apostrophe usage: Ben’s sitar, Akbar’s tomb, Chelsea’s elephant.  The most common mistake this semester has been writing, “It’s,” when you mean, “Its.”
  6. Proper colon and semicolon usage. 
  7. Proper usage of italics - words in another language. 
  8. SPELLING – especially names and places. 

Monday, April 26, 2010

Looking for a comic/graphic novel version of the Buddha's life story

Here are some good finds, but not exactly what I am looking for.  My target audiences are high school, gap year, and university students who are hearing about/learning about the story of the Buddha's life for the first time.  The aim is to help the students understand from an historical/mythological perspective who the Buddha was and why he is so important to the structure of South Asian history.

As Mary said today, "He must have been a cool dude if we are still talking about him 2600 years after he died."  The same could be said for all the prophets of all religions.  It is the same myth that is perpetuated, though Buddhists differentiate by clarifying the Buddha's teachings did not have the same focus of eternalism that the messianic religions had, or developed.  Nor did the complete opposite nihilistic view encompass what the Buddha said he discovered.  But the myth remains - the story of a prince who gives it all up to find a way out of suffering.

I asked a good buddy who knows comics to help me find what I am looking for.  These were some sites he found:

www.buddhanet.net has great teaching tools for primary and secondary students - I need to do some more digging to find out who these guys are and from where they are pulling their information.  This coloring book of the life story of the Buddha is quite detailed and cleared up a few of my questions and confused other facts I thought I knew e.g. in this book, it says that the first person to give the Buddha food after he fainted during his six years living and practicing as an aesthetic was a young nameless boy.  I had understood that Sudhana gave him rice and milk and this was enough to realize that the way of denial of physical needs was the opposite spectrum and there needed to be a balance to that.  Hm.

Deepak Chopra also has an illustrated book of the life of the Buddha - here's the cover.  I am not sure about this one.  I didn't know that Deepak Chopra was a Buddhist ? ?

Then, there is a famous Japanese graphic novel called Buddha by Osamu Tezuka in eight volumes.  People I talked with seem to know this one best.  I endeavor to read this as soon as possible.  Here's a review of the series.

Other suggestions are most welcome.  I leave you with this found here.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Understanding Tantra

The students this semester have found it difficult to come to an understanding of Tantra - rituals, practice, history, context, meaning - and of course, where it fits in relevantly to their academic study, as well as their developing spiritual lives and belief systems. 

I have been reading from different sources attempting to clarify definitions and construct my own understandings of these traditions from Indian Hindu and Buddhist and Tibetan Buddhist sources.  My knowledge remains limited to my small experience and tiny capacity for understanding, but maybe I can make some sense of these things in order to be a better guide for the students. 
 
What is Tantra?
Today from the Tibetan Buddhist Gelug perspective, there are two - First from Alexander Berzin, who has worked extensively with HH the 14th Dalai Lama on Kalachakra initiation.  Berzin also hosts an opensource website with layers of resources for those looking to study more deeply.  These quotes are from his book, Taking the Kalachakra Initiation, which is written to help the aspirant prepare for receiving the initiation. (1997, Snow Lion Publications: Ithaca, New York)

"Some people have odd notions about tantra and imagine, with great anticipation, that an initiation is an entranceway into a magic world of exotic sex and superpowers.  When they learn that this is not the case, but rather that tantric practice is complex, advanced, and requires seious committment and the keeping of many vows, they become frightened and are put off.  Neither of these reactions, of excitement of fear is appropriate."  (p.17)

"The word tantra means an everlasting stream of continuity... the everlasting stream is our mind - specifically its subtlest level know as primordial clear light - which provides continuity throughout all our lifetimes.  Like a pure laser beam of mere clarity and awareness, unadulterated by the gross oscillations of conceptual thought of disturbing emotions, it underlies each moment of experience, whether we are awake or asleep." (p.18)

Berzin goes on to describe the continuity like a radio that remains on through the process of finding the station to tune in to.  Through the station playing the music, the static between the stations, or how loud the radio is playing, the radio is still a radio - an open receiver for broadcast.  Tapping in to this continuity is the point of the practice - recognizing that it is there within each of us (each a different radio) and we all can recognize this potential. 

Lama Thubten Yeshe, one of the first visitors and teachers to the United State and the "West" from the Tibetan Buddhist Gelug tradition in the 1970s and 1980s, often gave teachings on the meanings and definitions of tantra in order to benefit his students.  He often said that the western mind was ripe for receiving and understanding these teachings and that, "The practice of tantra is so suitable for the modern West because it is 'scientific.'"  (p. xii)

Here are some quotes from his book Introduction to Tantra: The Transformation of Desire. Compiled by Jonathan Landow.  2001: Wisdom Publications, Sommerville, MA. 

(quotes below from Jonathan Landow's preface)

"Tantra, far from being a system of dogma to be accepted on faith or authority, is in fact a practical, step-by-step exploration of the human condition leading to self-discovery, and its results are verifiable through our own observations and experiences." (p. xii)

"The practice of tantra, which is designed to take advantage of this hidden inner resource and utilize it to the maximum extent, offers us the best opportunity to overcome these presures and transform our lives into the meaningful, integrated whole that we desire." (p. xii)

"Tantra is a path of joy and affirmation, qualities so sadly lacking in many of the currently depleted forms of what were once powerful spiritual traditions."  (p. xii)

"According to the Buddhist teachings, no matter how confused or deluded we may be at the moment, the underlying and essential nature of our being is clear and pure.  In the same way that clouds can temporarily obscure but cannot damage the light-giving power of the sun, so too the temporary afflictions of body and mind - our confusion, anxiety, and the suffering they cause - can temporarily obscure but cannot destroy or even tough the fundamentally clear nature of our consciousness." (p. 2)

"And the ultimate purpose of all spiritual practices, whether they are called Buddhist or not, is to uncover and make contact with this essential pure nature." (p. 2)

"When we have developed our own inner purity, inner compassion, and inner love, we can then see the reflection of this purity and loving-kindness in others.  But if we have not contacted these qualities within ourselves, we will see everyone as ugly and limited.  For whatever we see every day in our outer reality is actually nothing more than a projection of our own inner reality." (p. 2)

Lama Yeshe goes on to describe the difference between the two main approaches of Tibetan Buddhism - according to the sutrayana and tantrayanaSutrayana refers to the gradual causal path of purifying and cleansing the mind of its faults and limitations and replacing them with beneficial qualities of love and wisdom.  "This path consists of creating specific causes - behaving ethically, developing our powers of concentration, training in meditative insight, and so forth - for the future attainment of full awakening."  (p. 3)

Tantrayana is the faster method because one is trained to utilize the subtle energy of desire and negative emotions in order to more quickly and efficiently cleanse the mind of its faults.  "Although tantric practitioners do not neglect creating the same causes as the followers of sutra, they take the future result of full spiritual evolution as the very starting point in their path.  To put this in other words, the tantric yogi or yogini - as these supremely skillful practitioners are called in Sanskrit - learns to think, speak, and act now as if he or she were already a fully enlightened buddha." (p. 3)

"Speaking generally we can say that all the many practices of tantra involve the principle of transformation.  As modern science has demonstrated, the physical universe with its infinite variety of phenomena - from the smallest subatomic particle to the largest galaxy - is in an unceasing state of transformation and evolution from one form of energy to another.  Our own body and mind are also energy, and whether we are healthy or ill, mentally balanced or berserk, depends on whether our mental and physical energies are harmonious or not.  Through the proper practice of tantra all of our energies, including the subtle yet very powerful energies we are not ordinarily aware of, are harnessed to accomplish the greatest of all transformations.  This is our evolution from an ordinary, limited and deluded person trapped within the shell of a petty ego into a fully evolved, totally conscious being of unlimited compassion and insight." (p.5)

From these quotes we can understand - tantra is about transformation of our deluded mind into the inherent clear and luminous lazer beam that is our primordial nature.  Methods and techniques of tantric practice are of a resultant nature, taking this truth to be, philosophically, all one needs to accomplish enlightenment. 

"Instead of viewing pleasure and desire as something to be avoided at all costs, tantra recognizes the powerful energy aroused by our desires to be an indispensable resource for the spiritual path.  Because the goal is nothing less than the realization of our highest human potential, tantra seeks to transform every experience - no matter how 'unreligious' it may appear - into the path of fulfillment."  (p. 9)

A major feature about the rise of tantrism in India (Hindu and Buddhist) was its reactionary nature to the social taboos of the time - Buddhist tantra emerged from the Hindu tradition being practiced at the time of Sakyamuni, but its base is deep in the Hindu system of religious practice.  We cannot take this out of its context.  Brahmanical Hinduism 2500 years ago (this information needs more understanding.... ) set up a social caste system which supported the civility of the time.  Social taboos such as eating meat, drinking alcohol, and having sex were embraced by tantric practitioners not necessarily in order to transgress social boundaries, but rather to liberate themselves from the social structure.  Social taboos being forbidden became the cause of desire for many.  Using the energy of desire in a proper way was thought to facilitate spiritual enlightenment.

The historical Buddha Sakyamuni took this a step further by developing a philosophy of finding a balance between desire and aversion.  He denied his desires for six years to the extent that toward the end of this time he was not much more than a skeleton. "Instead of bringing him closer to his goal of transcendence, it was only making him too weak to think and meditate clearly." (p.12) 

Lama Yeshe continues to explain the first teaching on tantra by Sakyamuni Buddha was given to a king who requested such a teaching that would allow the king himself to take care of his subjects properly but he would not be able to do as Sakyamuni himself had done and renounce his worldly existence to find spiritual enlightenment.  The Buddha gave the Kalachakra Tantra to the king as a way to balance the responsibilities of a ruler, but also offer the potential of realization on the spiritual level.  This is seen as a noble act; the king is able to fulfill his responsibilities as a ruler but also accomplish personal realization. (p. 13)

Questions remaining: 
Where did the Buddha come up with Kalachakra teachings?  How did they fit into the Hindu context at the time?  How old are Hindu tantra teachings and how are they different than the tantra teachings of Sakyamuni Buddha?  How did Hindu yogis view Siddhartha and his path?  How different are Buddhism and Hinduism, actually?  What is the difference?  How did the teachings at the time of the Buddha change or develop into the teaching we are able to find from different Buddhist traditions today?  Example: Tibetan and Japanese Buddhism.  If Sakyamuni taught different tantric practices during his lifetime, how have they all been preserved and disseminated - who understands these things and how are they taught?  How does one explain all of this subtlety to university students who have misconceptions about tantra based on flashy cultural images of sex and candy?

Outline Maps

Outline maps of different regions of the world - good for teaching, training, testing knowledge.

I'll use this in the fall to help students understand the context of south asia and central asia - we all need to understanding the interconnectedness of the region in order to see from where the influences have emerged.  For example, the silk road involved trade on myriad levels and involved invaders and cultural appropriators from all sides.  To start to understand and unpack motivations of these merchants, we need to know what understanding they function under.

This site is the best one I've found for blank maps for testing current political boundary knowledge.


Friday, March 12, 2010

Using Metaphor as a teaching tool...

As an observation of the students that I am working with this semester, my boss and I have have many chats about the fact that the students don't understand metaphor.  Makes it quite difficult to understand poetry, art, and interpretations of history for that matter.  The students seem to be constantly staring at us with blank looks when we use metaphors to explain concepts in music, dance, and history.

One way I have addressed this in the past is to see it from their shoes - what metaphors make sense in their lives?  There is flat understanding when a teacher uses a metaphor from his/her own life that the students just haven't experienced yet.  Example - having kids, being married, graduating, turning 30, spending 5 years working on a degree that you never end up using in your work.  Is it the teacher's responsibility to come up with the metaphors that work for the students?  Can the teacher know the students' experience well enough to do that?  As the teacher gets older and the students stay the same age, does this process become more and more difficult?

I am looking for some research that my old boss told me about sometime that I always use as an example but can never remember who did the research - that our brains develop fully by the age of 25.  Something about the corpus callosum being the last part of the brain to fully develop?  So juniors and seniors in college still have a difficult time navigating things outside of their worldview - i.e. they process things through their own lens and have a difficult time empathising with others' experiences because some part of the brain is not developed fully yet.  It is a difficult world for them because at the same moment, they are expected to understand how to manage their time, be socially savvy, excellent writers and processors of information, build their resumes with heartfelt humanitarian work, and mind their manners.  That's a lot when you are doing it from one perspective.

That's not to say that holding them to committments and expectations isn't important - if you've been aware of a paper that is due on Friday at 5 pm for three weeks (and it is one of those papers that you have to do a lot of work on for three weeks rather than something you can write in two hours), don't ask for an extension at 2 pm on Friday afternoon!  And teachers, it's our responsibility to say NO to the extension.  Of course, in a skillful way that builds your relationship to the student - asking the right questions (rather than telling them, or putting them on the defensive) to help the student understand how they have been managing their time.

OI - so this come back to metaphor?  somehow.  Nuance.  More than taxonomic understanding.  making connections.  I've always been a visual learner - I notice myself, when a lecturer or facilitator is presenting a metaphor to help me understand some concept, I visualize it in my mind.  I draw the picture in my mind of a cave, a fire, a huge wall, and people looking at the wall and feeling fearful of what they see when someone is describing Plato's allegory.

I do my best when I am the one presenting the metaphor to actually picture it in my head while I describe, or tell stories in hopes that the image comes across through my words. Would the Matrix (Morpheus explaining the matrix to a newly awakened Neo) work better for these guys?

Bringing it Home:
Buddhism is filled with allegory and seemingly mythical stories that one can interpret at many levels - stories and hagiographies telling of powerful beings, manifestations of the compassionate mind, legendary diligence, and boundless wisdom.  These stories serve to inspire us to engage - to search for our own relationship to meaning.  It's our responsibility to figure this out.  (Here are some examples in a recent IDP blog...) The point that these metaphors serve is to wake us up.  To shake us from our habit.  To help us recognize our nature through identifying and then detaching from that identification, for we can see that way how strongly we identify, if we pay attention.

I need a metaphor to explain it.  :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Global Tiger Initiative

In this year 2010, the Year of the Tiger, the Global Tiger Initiative launched with a conference including the 13 countries that govern tiger habitat.  The conference was in Kathmandu... (neutral ground? Or where the best facilitators are?) in late October.  During the four days, aims and objectives were established to protect tiger habitat which has reached 10% of the historical range, and make efforts for valuing live tigers rather than dead ones.

This HT article talks about Nepal's initiative to count their tigers starting next week.  Only full grown tigers will be counted.  Estimates were at 121 tigers in Nepal two years ago.

World Bank is involved: this is their tiger website.

Youtube has a page for GTI.



(read some of the reports on the gti website to see if any are appropriate for the Chitwan reader... final report summary?  other academic papers?  how can we link this in with lectures the students will hear?  ask anil and watch youtube pieces to see if any are appropriate for viewing with the students)


Monday, January 11, 2010

The Danger of a Single Story

Experiential Education Web Resources

An old professor of mine, James Neill put this site together - I believe it had something to do with his PhD.  Here are his fabulous comments on the ELC.


This one is interesting and navigates experiential learning through different perspectives of teacher and learner.

Important Names: 
John Dewey and his groundbreaking educational philosophies striving to understand human interaction with their learning environment and how responsible, dependable, citizens are crafted through meeting with the rawness of the wilderness, and how civil society is shaped through that learning - rugged individualism at its best!

Jean Piaget on theories of cognitive development...

David A. Kolb on experiential learning...
Collection of links/sites, relating to Kolb's work, but also explanations of why they are relevant to the work (also many thoughtful critiques)

More Classroom-based experiential learning here, but lesson plans and resources seem adaptable to any setting.


Team Building "Camp stuff," Initiatives, Trust activities and Processing -
http://www.ultimatecampresource.com/
http://www.thecampwiki.com/index.php?title=Main_Page

Please feel free to add any educational resources that may be helpful to this type of learning!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Life Lessons from Stargate: Atlantis

I've always been a fan of scifi novels, fantasy novels, and movies that push the boundaries of technological advancement including elements of apocalyptic themes.  Watching/reading this genre causes me to consider two things: 1. my own mortality and 2. the possibility of limitless human creativity, resourcefulness, and spirit.

Mortality shows itself as the viewer/reader follows the characters along their adventures - identifying with their struggles, challenges, victories, wrestling with trust, individuality, resourcefulness, and courage as they face unending threats on their lives.  I see myself in the stories - or at least, can put myself in the preverbial 'shoes' of the characters quite easily.  I ask myself questions as I'm reading/watching Would I make that decision? Would I have trusted that person?  Could I be that strong and vibrant?  Could I kick someone's ass so efficiently?  How long would it take me to recover from such an ass-kicking?  How are MY leadership skills?  I think this is the reason humans like movies, novels, tv shows.  They are (in their brilliant entertaining way) alternate realities we can identify with that help us cling less fiercely to the reality we identify as our own.

Considering, or believing in, limitless human potential is another point.  Maybe MY limitless human potential (Be all you can be - or how much science can one truly understand in one's lifetime) is on the table and considering it motivates me to be less lazy, but to think about the potential of humans to create protective force fields, teleportation devices, magical potions, medical miracles, identify and utilize psychic abilities, storytelling gifts, and (brace yourselves) create a functioning community of trusting individuals gives me a lot of hope.  Yes, these communities I watch/read are imaginary, but it does leave me with the feeling that even if we are idealizing how humans live and work together, it must be possible to do so on some level.  We wouldn't be imagining these scenarios if we didn't have it in us, right?  (See Future Post about my Will Smith Theory).

So with Death and Hope as my overarching themes, this post is just one big justification for spending time watching an entire tv series from first episode to the last one.  A good/new friend let me borrow the entire discography of the scifi drama Stargate: Atlantis.


I'm not a big tv fan - don't own one, never want to.  But laptops work for tv on my own time.  (I fumble with that justification from time to time - what is it I really *like* about the experience of watching movies and tv episodes... the ability to watch when I want, what I want commercial free? or is this just a big fat time waster.  Most probably, the second.)  But here goes, anyway!

Here are some themes from the show that I want to keep track of for future teaching purposes (like my Tuckman's stages of group development through Fellowship of the Ring):

  • building trust - how, why, it takes time, how you benefit from it, teamwork and relying on your teammates.  Does everyone need to be in a life threatening situation to learn to trust people? Is it true that everyone has their special place in the team - like a comic book? 
  • Specialization - being a doctor, fighter pilot, weapons master, diplomat.   It's the ideal that if a team of specialists are brought together, many parts make a whole.  Reinforces importance of specialization rather than being a jack-of-all-trades.
  • drawing/maintaining lines - not being pushed around, not dating the people you work with
  • making decisions and taking responsibility for them - leadership, ethics, guilt?
  • commitment to ideals and to others you trust are working toward those ideals
  • working hard - what exactly does this mean?  Not taking care of yourself?
  • unachievable perfection = perfect humanity
  • authority (John subverting it, Elizabeth holding on to it by her teeth, Sam being even, interested, clear, capable, and nondramatic - I don't question her like I questioned Elizabeth's confidence)
  • diplomacy (Elizabeth) - negotiations vs. destruction - there's always an ideal for 'peace' and trade relations to exist between civilizations, but do not stand idly by while the other agresses.  Not sure I agree with this one... peace as in 'mutual benefit' on both sides, yes.  And the negotiators are responsible identify the needs of each society and have an agreed-upon treaty or limit to the exchange.  What if one or the other feels they are being taken advantage of?  What if they don't?  What if one needs help and the other has the means to help?  
  • development (Explorer teams) - teams explore the galaxy looking for viable trade partners.  They have yet to set up a peaceful treaty in almost 60 episodes (end of season three).  When the teams arrive on a new planet, they always assume the people are 'underdeveloped' living in 'simpler times' with no technology. Their assumption is that technology + warfare capability = developed nation.  (#55 "The Game" where 'Sim City' goes horribly wrong)  
  • speaking your mind vs. holding your tongue: TACT (Rodney vs. Carson) Making excuses - sometimes it's better just to do it rather than make excuses about things.  It can take too much time.  (Rodney)
  • Never look away from your enemy - it shows weakness. 
  • power/energy/resources are limited and need to be utilized efficiently
  • Small acts of self-protection can be viewed as aggression toward others, even when it's not meant as that.  You might have a war on your hands in a few episodes.
  • Canadians say "sorry" and "out" differently than US Americans
  • If you find a person-sized slimy cocoon/pod/egg thing, don't go looking for the thing that used to be in it.
Things that don't make sense:
everyone speaking english - even the 'alien' human races.  only the 'bad guys' don't speak english.  The ancients used to speak ancient, but they speak english now. 

Good Quotes: 
"Draw from your past, but do not let your past draw from you."

    Friday, January 1, 2010

    The Known Universe

    A little humility with bedtime.  Will give me sweet dreams.