You have to do it yourself

"Others’ words can’t measure your practice, and you don’t realize the dharma because of what others say. I mean the real dharma. The teachings others can give you are to show you the path, but that isn’t real knowledge. When people genuinely meet the dharma, they realize it directly within themselves. So the Buddha said that he is merely the one who shows the way. In teaching us, he is not accomplishing the way for us. It is not so easy as that. It’s like someone who sells us a plow to till the fields. He isn’t going to do the plowing for us. We have to do that ourselves. Don’t wait for the salesman to do it. Once he’s made the sale, he takes the money and splits. That’s his part.That’s how it is in practice. The Buddha shows the way. He’s not the one who does it for us. Don’t expect the salesman to till your field. If we understand the path in this way, it’s a little more comfortable for us, and we will do it ourselves. Then there will be fruition."

- Ajahn Chah, "Meeting the Dharma Alone"

Music Themes: Lonliness

together with someone, or many people, but alone in your head.
never happy no matter who you're with.
lonely because you are by yourself, thinking that being with someone or other people would fix the feeling.
missing one particular person, but surrounded by many many others.
no body knows you at all.

Suspension of the same notes or suspended (2 or 4) open picked chord over basic I-IV-V progression (different rhythms or time signatures for different emotions?) and a predictable ii-V-vii7-V-I bridge.

This came from an awful cover of an awful, but interesting song from NYE in Kathmandu (it was so loud I couldn't talk to my friends at the table - the band was literally screaming and I had to put my fingers in my ears to stop the pain) by Hoobastank (worst band name EVER) The Reason.
But there was something insistent and sad about the music.  And the fact that the Nepali singer (which is typical) didn't actually know the English lyrics, but was just singing like we sing when we don't know the words, but we think we know... just singing sounds, was driving me crazy.